It came word you passed away leaving us on the 20th October at 3.20am. Still trying to collect myself from the shock. My dearest lovely aunt, you were like a mother to me. A lovable character that will always have a special place in my heart. Now, when you’re gone I felt a part of me went away together with you. And all that I had was good and lovely memories we shared and I missed you so dearly today. Sat here, alone only with these tears I shed thinking of how beautiful the world is when u were around.
I called you weeks ago and we joked around. The normal jokes I shared with you on the phone. Still remembered your laughter as I delivered my punchlines. You did say you’re tired and we should celebrate our birthday together making a tahlil where our family can come together. That day never came Instead I saw u in the hospital fighting for your life. It broke my heart. But after 4 days diagnosed, god took u away for the better. Your hands untied, your pain lifted and you’re gone. Just like that.
I was there at your hospital bed at 4.45am seeing u lifeless. Eithout a voice, movement and I thanked Allah on how peaceful u looked. Almost a smile on your face and I broke down. I remembered your lessons on life, your love and how beautiful of a person u were when you were alive. My cousin held my hand and told me to be strong as you were there still there observing us. I was lost.
I was with you the whole time. I got to carry your body and masya’allah how light you were. As I carefully placed u into the coffin, I wept silently. Sat through you all the time. My hands on the metal cover all the time til we reached your home. From the transfers through everything, I was there. I was there trying help around in any way I could. As I knew that was the last time and last contribution to show how much I loved you as a mother. As they placed ur wrapped body on the living room before u were carried away to the land of peace, I wept. I still couldnt believe u were gone.
When we placed u down on the ground in your grave, my strength was gone. I became weak and I knew that was the last time. I was in a mess. I couldnt believe it. I fell to my knees. Luckily for the family was there as they pulled me up amd comforted me. As they pour the sands and the last rites, I realised u were not there anymore. That was the last. And I knew forever from then, I would never see, hear and hug you like I usually do anymore. All the jokes, the laughters and the memories are all there.
I took a stroll around your neighborhood with a cigarette on my mouth. Just walked through the place and try to recollect myself and as I look up to your window, I saw your lovely spirit waving and smiling.
May you rest in peace my dear aunt. I love you and I forever will. Hope u will be placed among those in Jannah and may our prophet Muhammad S.A.W grant u in to be his ummah. I miss you Cik Cah. Hope to see u soon.
I love you.
The darker side is better when everything under the light glows brighter… its easier to kill while they busk under the sun…"
What i would do to have this for myself.
Talking to the moon…
At night when the stars light up my room,
I sit by myself…
Talking to the moon…
Trying to get to you…
And I hope you’re on the other side talking to me too..
Or am I a fool who sits alone…
Talking to the moon… :’(
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me when you were looking for yourself out there… :’)
Train - Drops of Jupiter
Go get them kid… Inspirational homeless kid trying his best